I chose a shimmery off white button today. Thick and sturdy, it felt like a work day button but was the beautiful color of a second wedding dress. The one you wear when you have already left one relationship but are now smarter and stronger and know what you want in a marriage. A good button for today. Work first, then a stop to celebrate friends who are hosting their post tying the knot party.
I am the widow of a strong and sturdy, sometimes shimmery, second marriage. Wedding celebrations are bitter sweet - our vows were " grow old along with me " but alas, that was not in the cards. I hold the button and think about the fact that buttons hold things together, but they also can be undone, like relationships. Separation, divorce, death. They are all undone relationships, but the button and the empty buttonhole remain.
I am a strong and sturdy, sometimes shimmery, button. Widowhood is an empty buttonhole. All wrong.
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