Day Thirty of Forty Two

Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.
Fourteen days ago, on Day 16, I posted on my blog page that I would resume my daily posts  - tomorrow. 

Thirteen tomorrows have come and gone, and no posts. How does that happen?  How does tomorrow turn in to today and become yesterday without our promises to ourselve being fulfilled?

That is part of this 42 Day process for me.  Determining where I go off course? what is it that truly Matters to me and why it is not on the top of the list of accomplishments every single day without fail?

This is what I know at this moment in time.

On each of those thirteen days there was joy.  I had some fun along the way. 
On each of them I made some good choices - and some poor ones - and one or two downright bad ones. I hurt a few feelings and had mine hurt too, but there was awareness and forgiveness and laughter and love left us all in a good place to try again - with courage.
On each of them I had good company and enjoyed their presence on my journey of life, I laughed out loud and said I love you in a million ways to those most important to me.

This is what else I know.
I took a crisis of sorts ( no worry for me or us needed   - an easy crisis in the crisis heirarchy ) for me to honor my determination to walk this journey in complete and total faith in the Lord.
That crisis lead me to gratitude not despair - thanks to my many friends and wonderful family.
My garden, which was to be THE THING I WAS DOING, has as many weeds as flowers - but - it is florishing with black caps that are divine and the sugar snap pea crop was delicious and those plants are pulled making room for another promise space.  - or more weeds depending.....
I weigh the very same as I did when I started so I am no closer to my weight goal than on Day One- but no farther away either .  A  draw on the scale but a dissapointment none the less.

And this is the most important thing I know.  Today is a new day. The weather is giving us a little break, and the sun is shining.  I am loved and I have many to love in return. I am blessed.

And, it is only Day Thirty - twelve to go.  See you tomorrow .